Happy Birthday Luke

       

Dearest Luke,

   It is so hard to believe that you would be two years old today.  Even though the days without you seem to creep by, I cannot believe that two years have passed since we held you in our arms and whispered so much love into your tiny ears and heart.  I have been thinking about your birthday for a long time and yet, still today I have been caught by surprise by the rawness of my sadness and grief in missing you.  It feels just as real as if you were here yesterday.  

taking some flowers to her big brother...

You are missed every single day, sweet boy.  I wonder what you would be busy doing and learning if you were here with us today.  Your baby sister is growing big and strong and we continue to tell her about her big brother as the days go by.  This fall we took her to your special spot and were all together as a family for the first time.   We visited you again at Christmastime and want you to know that no matter how many days go by and how far the distance between here and heaven, there will always be a Luke-shaped hole in our lives until we are reunited again.  

My missing you continues to take on new surprising forms...as Lily grows, I am slowly realizing all of the simple joys and firsts I missed getting to have with you.  I know you are in heaven, but I just wish I could hold you for a few more minutes and just whisper again how happy I am that you were here, how much I will always love you and how thankful I will always be that you are my son.  I love you and I miss you.  Always.

All my heart,

Mom